Sometimes I feel pretty and nobody notices.

2:41pm: It was familiar to me, the smoke too thick to breathe. The tile floors glistened; I slowly stirred my drink. And when you started to sing, you spoke with broken speech that I could not understand, and then you grabbed me tightly.

I won't let go, I won't let go. Even if you say so, oh no. I've tried and tried with no results. I won't let go, I won't let go.

He then played every song from 1993. The crowd applauded as he curtsied bashfully. Your eyelashes tickled my neck with every nervous blink, and it was perfect until the telephone started

Ringing ringing ringing ringing ringing off ...

2:48am: but this new diet's liquid
Stumble around the neighborhood with nothing to do. You're always looking for something to sniff, smoke, or swallow. Calling over next door, see what they got. You'll settle for anything that'll make your brain slow down or stop.

11:08pm: sorry that i've become this monster.

11:35pm: Remember when life was good?

8:18am: let's just forget
everything said
and everything we did
best friends, better halves, goodbyes

and the autumn night
when we realized
we were falling out of love

there were some things
that were said
that weren't meant
like we never did

not to be
overly dramatic

i just think it's best
cause you can't miss what you forget

so let's just pretend
everything and anything
between you and me
was never meant

8:54pm:

2:46pm: the screen enclosure is being ripped apart, piece by piece. and i can't watch it happen, because i know i can't do anything about it. it is fucking depressing. insurance won't cover this. it's bending and collapsing. and there's nothing i can do to stop it. i've never felt so defenseless. i fucking hate these hurricanes. i hate this town. i can't stay here much longer. it's driving me mad. elliott smith isn't helping me much either.

11:05pm: Dear Friend,
How are you ?and how is your family, hope they are fine too.For purpose
of introduction, My name is VERO AIGBE.I wanted to discuss something
with
you,thats really bothering me.I know you will be supprise how i got
your
email address,but dont be suprise i got it while i was browsing along
the
net also i know this sound somehow strange to you because we have not
met
phisically.But i promise to be nice.
I am about to tell you something that i have not discuss with anyone
.My
father(MR JAMES AIGBE) was a big time farmer in southafrica,he uses
most
of southafrica land for farming.The Government in south africa gave him
those lands for farming, and he will pay back when he got the money.My
father
was very successfull in the farming business and he paid back.
Some top officials in the Government were Jealous of him because of his
wealth.They wanted him to do a rotegated business with them but he
refuse
,so they planned to kill him and claim all his wealth in south
africa.On
his way home one day he was coming from work they shot him , and he was
rushed to the hospital but he did not survived it .But before they
killed
him he saw it coming and deposited most of his fund on a consignment in
a security company in Holland.He died in the hospital ,But before he
died
he gave me the conact information of the security company ,as the only
daugther.
Those people were looking for me and my family and we ran to Nigeria
for
safety.My lawyer contacted the security company some weeks back on how
i
could claim the consignment and they told him that i need a beneficiary
outside Africa for security reasons.And i dont have anyone outside
africa
that will stand for me as a beneficiary.They said the money was too big
($20m)My father never told me the amount of the money i was so shock.My
lawyer told me to look for a beneficiary.That is my problem now,am
willing
to give $7m for the person that will help the family.Please if u can
help
me in any way i will appreciate it alot.I will like to hear from u
soon,with
your full name and phone number,for easy contact with you ok.

Please reply me via my alternative email
address(veroaig@excite.com).
Sincerely,
VERO AIGBE.

11:02pm: i like how nothing good comes to me. but the shitty people get everything they want. how does that work? maybe i'll start being a two faced cunt and then i'll be happy. is that how it works? this is making me angry. i've been trying so hard, thinking good thoughts, forgetting the bad in people. and for what? nothing. i get nothing. i don't know what else to do. maybe actually putting in effort is what is screwing me over. maybe being a "good" person isn't all it's cracked up to be. i don't understand anymore. and as soon as i say things will change, things will get better, everything gets worse and deteriorates. i didn't really get my hopes up, i just feel like i'm in the same place as i was a year ago. and that isn't exactly where i'd like to be right now ..

i need a hobby, badly. or else i'm going to end up driving myself nuts.

8:47pm: so my dad made me clean up the patio with him. the truth is, i think he just wanted company.

7:17pm: school isn't tomorrow. losers.

10:15am: bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in dragbob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag bob saget in drag.

i won the cat stevens shirt on ebay.

12:36am: 98% of the teenage population has tried pot. If you're part of the 2% that hasn't, copy this into your journal.

5:17pm:

I hate my life now.

12:59am: if it's not too late for coffee, i'll be at your place in ten

Don't hold on
And go get strong
Well, don't you know
That there is no
Modern romance

Time 
Time is gone
It stops, stops who it wants
Well, I was wrong
It never lasts
And there is no
Well, this is no
Modern romance

And time
Time is gone
It never lasts
Stops who it wants
Well, I was wrong
It never lasts
This is no
There is no
Modern romance

12:37am: You're so much like her (in a good way) that it scares me a little.

1:54am: I like the taste of tears. And blood.

5:08pm: I earn my keep by hunting geckos in the sky.


But be careful! They are known for biting!


Ouch!


Jesus freaks out in the streets.

10:13pm: I am never relying on you for anything, you piece of shit.

12:09am: stop being such a nigger.

stop posting so many pictures of your ugly face.

stop having so much self esteem.

stop playing games with my head.

stop listening to dashboard confessional.

stop relying on people.

stop getting hurt.

stop getting attached.

stop remembering.

stop forgetting.

stop whining.

stop breathing?

hahaha. not me. you!

maybe i should lj cut this but i don't want to and if you don't like it, then you can suck my dick.

:D

tomorrow is stormy's birthday. he will be nine. and that is sixty three in dog years. holy moly. he is an old poodle. it's sad that animals don't have a lot of time with us, you know? yeah.

do you ever think about how many birthdays you will have? how far up you get before you get hit by a bus or die of aids or something. i think about that all time. will i make it to fifty? sixty? probably not. who knows? maybe i will die tomorrow. maybe i'll die next year. it's so odd never knowing. but if i had the chance to find out, i wouldn't. yeah. frightening.

HI TALK TO ME PLEASE WELL IF YOURE NOT I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I WANT YOU TO HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS PLEASE TALK TO ME ITS DOMMMMMMMMM !!!!

yeah. thank you for losing contact with me and forgetting my birthday and such. and i was there for your birth. i am glad to know that you still care.

11:14pm: Which of the bold faced lies will we use?
I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it,
this will be the best for us both in the end.

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude but it will do.

Which of the standard lines will we use?
I've been meaning to call you. I've just been so busy.
We'll catch up soon.
Let's make it a point to.

Everyone is so sad now. And I don't know how to make anyone feel better because I am feeling the same way myself. It really takes a toll on you after awhile. I want to be there for them. But I don't know. I just want to be selfish right now.

12:05am: I felt your shape.

12:50am:

plz gimmie this pussy cat. i don't care if it's not real. find me one.

10:30pm: my favorite color is brown

7:27pm: don't know if i can do this.